.Wednesday, March 31, 2010 ' 3/31/2010 05:59:00 PM Y
Everyday. I feel so bored. In class feeling so sleepy.
Always moody. But no one knows.
Always feeling down. But no one knows.
Always frowning in secret. No one knows.
I wanna feel hyper. I know i feel better now.
Not as bad as last time.
But memories still remain don't they?
I try my best to forget.
I try my best to be happy.
But no one understands.
Everyday. thrs always a reminder.
Some idiot would come out to me and say her name.
Some idiot would just ask me what happen.
The memories just rush back in.
Sinking my heart to the deepest depths of sorrow.
All i do. Is put on a fake smile and walk away.
I try hard to be happy. I try hard to have fun.
Brothers. Thats what we all are. When one is sad. Everyone else is too.
Somehow i don't want them to feel that way. Maybe they won't.
Life feels so meaningless to me.
In school all i do is daydream. Daydream bout being loved. Daydream bout being happy.
But when will that ever come true?
Luckily i'm not alone. There are people who understand.
At least i know there's always someone there to keep me company.
2010 sucks. Agreed?
Everybody starts regretting.
I feel enough regret.
Enough sorrow.
Enough of being alone.
Cause being alone. Just brings on the tears. And makes me think.
Remember. And eventually cry.
I remembered Ms Goh asking me why i changed so much from secondary 1.
I too do not know.
During holidays. Many things can change.
My life feels so screwed.
I just wanna run away from it all.
How can i..
Just someone. Can you please tell me how?
